Ups and downs. ALS is expert at rallying emotions on to a virtual roller coaster, creating the perfect vehicle with which to launch a bipolar experience equalled by none. Add the physical deterioration and you have the storm of utter frustration and disillusionment manifested in absolute clarity. Reaching this rock bottom existence crystallizes reality, focuses intent and leaves only one option. Death is unattainable. Only life remains. Presently, life is a battle. It can only get better because I won't allow it to be worse. I have much to shed so that I may more easily rise to the battle of recovery. There is no other way.
You make my soul smile.
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